I'm not mad

Haven't been feeling this way for a long, so void and offensive

Feeling like as if I hate everything around me

So irritated, too many ugly things, too many mean ppl, too many things to think, and so bad that i haven't been rewarded for this long

I know that I'm one that is far from worth rewarding, I'm given much more than I paid but but but u know there r so many ppl that has more than me and paid less than me

It's all too subjective, I know

However my sorrow, anger, and frustration don't stop at such a night

Had better to watch a movie he likes and wash the uncomfortable emotions away with tears or escape into sleep pretending as if I'm still tipsy

Wanna go home quickly

I'm not the one who loves his/her family but wanna go back to that reasonably comfortable room

Some ppl affect u in a positive way, communicating with them makes u happy, accepted and loved or at least liked. Others influence u in a negative way, they make u feel depressed, not welcomed, and u r disinterrsting person

Don't need to try to get close to them, it's impossible as they don't want to do so

It's better putting ur energy to find a place where welcomes a person like you, hope such a place exists in this world