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Let me assume that she thinks that ppl cannot do well in the future if they cannot do so consistently now.

Then, i suppose that it might be because she thinks what's going on will last.

Then i wonder, "Has anything that looked sustainable continued?"

And then i concluded that her way of thinking is totally normal and different from me.

These days i really miss NYC.

Talking about NYC, congrats Mr. Nishikohri, what u've done is really awesome, inspiring and thrilling. Hope u'll come back next year as u told us and hope i'll get a job by that time.

I seriously miss Manhattan.. however the memories of winter vacation are replaced with the spiring ones, whatever i remember about NYC i never felt that damnly cold climate lol

Losing confidence, credibility and control again. Never felt motivated as i did a few months ago nor a week ago. Just breathing and consuming so many things, i'm sure it harms someone i don't know. However i don't stop it. I can't say i can't, i simply don't do so.

Melancholic, depressed and dull. So bad.