君は笑ってくれるかな

Falling falling falling 君は笑ってくれるんだろうか (♪):Foolish/ART-SCHOOL

多分一日のうちに内省タイムみたいなのがあるのが落ち込む原因だとは思うんだけど、どうしたらやめられるのかがわからない。

ノベンバのRomanceの歌詞を反芻していたら、静かに～のところね、本当にそれ以上でもそれ以下でもなくて。まだ生きてるけどわたしその気持ち知ってる。しかも今思いつくだけでも3種類くらいの感覚で、この歌詞の感じ、思ったことある。この歌本当に好き過ぎる。

i guess i'm alright as far as i think abt some promises i've been keeping, i'm modest enough to think that no one counts on me but if i do what i wanna do some ppl may have some kind of troubles.

I saw the sign saying that "Did u clean up ur USB memory?" or smtg like that but i'd never care about those things if i passed away, the same thing goes with ppl around me. I still care abt others, it means that i'm pretty well.

Sometimes i'm deeply attracted by death, it is enevitable especially when it's getting colder. i'm fine cuz i still can express some kind of sos, writing this is one of those sings i guess.

Stop thinking, just continue doing what others expect me to do.

There's a song whose lyrics ask if you can think about your dream when you're falling down (Middle of Nowhere/ELLEGARDEN), i cannot and don't know whether it's because i'm bad or i don't have any dream now. Well both are right, tbh.

Calling for you in my mind again and again, plz don't notice, i'm trying to get this blue through.